Thursday, August 21, 2008

1, 2, 3, 4

One Two Three Four
Tell me that you love me more
Sleepless, long nights
That was what my youth was for

I was given my name by a young boy who happened to be in my mother's maternity ward. He was thirteen, the son of a colleague and my parents were still perplexing over what to name their first daughter. The boy was a scrawny sallow-skinned fellow, he looked up at my mom through his jagged bangs and told her he was in love with a girl who had the most beautiful name. My mom bent closer as he whispered it into her ear, the next day my birth certificate was printed, I have never met him again since. I drink all my drinks with two straws because Macaulay Culkin did it in Home Alone and I thought it was the awesomest thing ever as a kid. I tell people I hate Titanic but I still watch it every time it shows on channel 5 and cry when I think no one's looking. When I was young I wore floral dresses for tennis lessons and cried when my mom tried to make me change into something more appropriate. Once my brother flung my doll against a wall so hard that all it's porcelain fingers broke off, I wrapped it in a cotton towel and brought it out to the yard and buried it, making a little tombstone with a large chunk of granite, it was then when I decided to never get so attached to anything ever again. I like the rain but sometimes lightning still scares me. When I watch doomsday films where the whole world is in chaos in the end I'm secretly relieved to step out of cinema to find that everything is still okay. My brother and I once when so crazy with chocolate and peanut butter that he ended up hospitalized for asthma. When my best friend flew away to Perth I sat at the airport gallery for an hour watching the planes take off and wondered what I was going to do.

That's all you need to know about me. Really.